‘Healing stories’ is a series of client journeys during intuitive healing sessions. In each of these journeys, the protagonist is guided into a deep meditative state where we ask the intuition to come through. The intuition then guides them through these multi-sensory journeys to heal by bringing balance in mind, body, and energy. And the results? Beyond words.
In this session, you’ll notice W received a lot of information through clairaudience, or clear hearing. This is when the intuition comes through and sounds like the inner voice.
Before the session began, I asked W set an intention by telling me how she wanted to feel around where she is now and what was coming up for her. Her intention was to feel light, enjoyable, fun, grounded, directed, ease, letting energy and skills that she knows are there out in a direction that feels good; certainty clarity, and knowing that is the right thing for her right now; all of this around life, motherhood, partnership
When we asked where her intuition would like to guide us to begin, she felt tension in her hip creases. She imagined going in there, and they felt very dense and heavy. She saw dark maroon, and they felt resistant to the touch – almost bouncy.
When she asked the hip crease how it feels, it said, “Heavy.” It needed movement. She asked what that would look like and saw herself doing warrior poses in yoga and other yoga stretches. She promised to give her hips a yoga session after the session :).
Then she asked if the hip crease had any more messages for her, and her own voice came through, “I am where I am meant to be.”
The hips’ guidance for her: “Release my expectations; find ways to be more present – not expecting what I thought to be true to always be true – what I know to be true is true, but what I’ve taken on outside of myself might not be true anymore; there are truths within that remain true. I need to access them and let them out and not be afraid of them. Some of the ways I thought the truths might manifest I can let go of, but the truth is still there.”
I asked: “Are there any false beliefs you can let go of today?”
W: “1. I need a title or a label that other people value. 2. Raising a child is doing nothing.”
She was guided to let the first false belief go by describing it: raising a child, building a community, building a business, learning a new language, taking time to nourish herself so that she can be resilient and creative and loving.
“Recognizing my day, the energy, courage, and willpower it takes to be present for my son and his needs. Providing all the basics and the incredible amount of energy needed. Getting him to sleep takes hours. Cleaning up after his messes. The patience it takes to survive his willpower that might not be going in the same way as mine. Recognizing how much work it was to have a baby, to feed the baby, to be present with the baby. That it was also important for him to have that presence. It was about 100% of what I could give.”
Suddenly, strong emotions arose. “I’m feeling a lot of anger and sadness around how wrong it is to say you don’t do anything. I know I say it only because it’s in the culture, and it’s so frustrating. It’s very hard to think that I might want to go through it again. And I do want to go through it again. Struggling so much. So much sadness around feeling a lack of support. No fingers to point. I’m letting go of the idea of not doing anything.” Tears fell with this declaration.
Then she felt a bit confused – oscillating between planning for a new child and being wary. I asked her to talk to the part of her that feels confused.
She felt angry and hurt that she wasn’t prepared to experience what all women experience;* i.e., there is a general lack of knowledge about women’s realities, capabilities, about having a baby. The confused woman inside asked W to give her more support now and however the family evolves. W listened and let the confused voice inside know she was there and hugged her.
W was then given more tools for healing false belief 2: raising a child is doing nothing. “Talking is helpful. Recognizing it for what it is: hard and valuable vs. easy and not valuable. Building a community with other women that understand to talk about it and support each other.”
At the end of the session she looked liberated from some of her burdens. She still had some tears, but there was a loving smile that shone through much more freely and gently. She was grateful and ready to face the rest of the day.
*When I asked for consent to share her story, W clarified what she meant by saying “what all women experience”: “I’m talking in a very broad sense not only re what it takes to birth or raise a child as not all women do so, I am angry that my generation did not learn more about our menstrual cycles and how they work and how our energy cycles are different than non-menstruating people, angry about how women’s realities are often missing from the cultural conversation or undervalued. And for me this has come up particularly in the post-birth period esp. in regards to my physical recovery which is still ongoing 2.5 yrs after birth and the physical and psychological intensity of caring for a baby which I was not prepared for, whereas the cultural narrative around having young children focuses mainly on the challenges of birth. Also so angry at how misrepresented births in movies are… I could go on!”
She is not alone in her feelings. I felt them too. This session was healing for me as well, and I feel it can help many other women simply by opening up about it.